I’ll Never Be Sorry

I’m sorry that I love you

I’m sorry that I care

I’m sorry that I made you feel

Like you were out of air

I’m sorry that your hurting

I’m sorry that your scared

I’m sorry that you felt the need

To force me out of there

I’m sorry that I go above

I’m sorry that I set that bar

I’m sorry that I found a way

To be inside your heart

I’m sorry that I pushed you to care

I’m sorry that I made you feel

I’m sorry that I allowed myself

To ever be real

I’m sorry that your panicking

I’m sorry that your freaked out

But most of all I’m not sorry

Not even a small doubt

How can I be sorry

For falling in love

When I can’t help but feel

Just what we are

We aren’t your average couple

We’ve built this from scratch

We’ve pushed so many limits

We have a friendship that last

I know we had rules

I know they didn’t stick

I know you felt the same

Even if you can’t commit

I never required a commitment

I never required much at all

I honestly just loved you

And gave you my all

I was content with the fact

You couldn’t give me more

I was aware you had been hurt

So I never pushed that door

I never required a label

I never forced anything

I simply just showed up

And let you know I was always gonna be the same

From the nights we spent lounging

There on the couch

To the nights we spent making love

There was never any doubts

The nights of documentaries

Watching Roseanne before bed

The nights we never really talked

We just cuddled on the couch instead

Those were my favorites

It was just us you see

The rest of the world

Didn’t need to be

All I ever needed was to be with you

I would give up anything just for those moments with you

Where my heart was happy

My soul was fed

My laughter continued

To go through my head

I’m sorry that you grew feelings

I’m sorry that you are scared

I’m sorry that this hurts your heart

I’m sorry you can’t bare

To see me or talk or even fall apart

But I’ll never be sorry

For the love I shared

I’ll never be sorry

For what I did to show you I care

I’ll never think of this as a mistake

or a bad thing

Because with you

I found so much of me

And that makes it worth it

regardless where you’ll be

You see I’ve never given my all

To anyone before

I’ve never opened my heart

Like I did with you

I never put someone else’s thoughts into mine

I never was okay with settling

until this time

I knew you needed patience

I knew you needed love

I knew you needed slow

So when push came to shove

I learned how to do that

I went far above my means

Even knowing it would be years

before I saw anything

None of that mattered

I’d wait forever you see

Because within you

I finally found me!

@LaceySue87 10-18-2021