I’ve been super quiet I know, but there’s good reason for that! With my quietness, I’ve been processing, researching, overcoming, learning and focusing where my attention needed to be! I actually took time away from the world in general.. my phone included! Ask my besties they will tell you I haven’t really been talking to anyone including them lately!
There’s lots of things that have impacted my little family over the last 6 months! It’s been a lot to take in and I’m not generally great at dealing with things! I use to use some not so fabulous coping mechanisms. Thankfully those coping mechanisms are a part of my past! Goodness so much time wasted on so many things, but at the end of those day those things mattered! It all Really makes a person look at their perspectives in life!
Speaking of Perspectives…. mine has changed so much over the last 2.5 years! What I once thought was so important, now seem like such silly/or not so big things! Those times I needed to have So many friends, or a significant other and I settled for things I shouldn’t have…. I hate that I wasted that precious time but im also so greatful for the experiences!
I use to really not care about myself at all, I didn’t care what happened as long as humans <the good and the bad> were apart of my life! It’s so big for me to now say “I UNAPOLOGETICALLY LOVE ME”
I use to take those good and bad experiences <that my story is created with> and just accept them because it was inevitable that I just deserved what I granted myself! Not anymore, I accept every challenge wide open and I fight to stay true to not only to those I love but too myself!
it’s amazing how such little things and big things can really make you do a 360 with your life!
I’m not anywhere close to where I was 2.5 years ago and I’m not finished with my work yet! In reality can you ever really be finished working on you!
there’s lots of bumps and curve balls being thrown my direction and for the first time in my life I can say I clearly, soberly, promptly doing everything I can to overcome, what’s coming my direction and that’s BIG!
The big steps that I’ve called baby steps for so long are finally adding up and I’m so greatful that I can look at every bad experience in the past and present and realize that they all served a purpose! They have made me who I am, and have taught me how to unapologetically love myself and those I love with everything I have! Finding the silver lining makes the world a better place to live in and learning how to fight for myself finally allowed the real me to come to surface! The person who unapologetically tries to right my wrongs, the person who tries to live with everything i have, the person who tries to be strong for everyone including myself, the person that’s meant to move mountains so that it can help someone else not feel alone or defeated! I’m that person and I couldn’t feel more proud than what i already am right now of the things I’ve accomplished especially in the last 2.5 years!
We are all here on borrowed time! We all have a purpose, a reason, a why! I had to learn to stop trying to steal the pen from the Lord and let him use me the way I was meant to be used! For someone that gave up on religion and faith for a long time, im greatful that slowly and surely I’m going right back where I belong!
I don’t want this world to think I’m bitter and angry like I was for so long, I want to always be that person that people tell funny stories about, that leaves a legacy that echos for years to come…. because I wasn’t scared or ashamed of my story! So now my goal is to keep loving myself, keep sharing, keep fighting and pushing and spend hopefully the rest of my life living better, laughing as much as possible, and loving uncontrollably because that’s who I am and who I will always be! Sometimes in the dark, we find a light that changes us and I am extremely thankful to say aortic the tunnel can be scary… there’s a light at the end of it that makes everything so much lighter! So love you, love every ounce of you! If you want to change, do it. If you want to grow, reach. Don’t hold yourself back…. push through whatever is on your heart and let it go! Don’t leave your story unwritten, own it, love it, and unapologetically BE YOU!
until next time, LaceySue 💛