Sorry I’ve been away the last 2 days, I had to do me! I actually did a lot of thinking the last week or so and decided now that I know what I want and what I deserve I’d throw myself back into the dating game!
Let me tell you there’s some special humans out there and I’m so thankful that I can see the red flags from afar now!
One of my girlfriend’s gave me the idea of ” Make a list” what you want, what you don’t, what you will accept and what you won’t!
So I through myself into the world of POF, Tinder, Facebook dating and litterly on Friday afternoon I sent my best friend a message!
“Maybe I’m better off not trying to date lmao, it’s exhausting 🤣🤣🤣 I’ve blocked more red flags in a week than my whole life”
4 minutes after I sent that message, I received a ” HI 👋 ” that hi turned into 7 hours of talking on the phone literally next up we are going to meet!
Me being a chicken 🐔 🙃 was straight up scared 😱 to throw myself out there, it’s only been a couple weeks! During those 7 hours of talking on the phone off and on I said exactly what I needed to! Hey I’m looking for this, I want this! Then he told me what he was looking for, and whatnot! So we agreed to meet and give it a whirl!
let me tell you this, that man was pretty perfect! He was and is exactly what he said! We met at the Wurst Place uptown <thankfully my favorite workers were there, and a few good friends> so that helped with the nerves a bunch!
we talked ya’ll, like hard core talked! It was so refreshing to actually talk to another human who had some of the similar situations I’d been in and just to be 2 adults having a good time! We spent many hours talking face to face, he took the time to get to know the inside of who I am! When we first started talking yesterday I told him ” heads up, im writing a blog! I have no intentions of stopping, it’s very personal and it hasn’t even really begun yet! So if that’s going to be a problem let me know” he quickly responded with ” you can send me the link and I can read through the footnotes or you can just talk to me about it when you are ready” that spoke volumes to me! Not only did we discuss the blog but the stuff that’s not in the blog yet, I just owned it and there was no going back. It was so wonderful to not have to fear judgement!
let me just say, I have no idea where this may or may not lead but I truly feel like this was such a big STEP in the right direction for me! He helped teach me comfort in vulnerability from the beginning and has only asked me to be myself fully in return!
we will just see how it continues to roll! It’s nice to know regardless what may come or not, I think this guy will be one of my best friends yet ❤ ! Earlier this evening we were texting and he sent me this “I am a strong believer in the fact that there are reasons why people meet that aren’t always readily apparent when they meet!”
On the plus side whether we stay friends or move it on to more, it was probably the perfect person to help me take the leap I was terrified of doing! Starting over is scary, and he helped ease that in so many ways!